When one chapter ends, a fresh page is turned… and that fresh page for me just so happens to be a web page. Specifically, a web page for my blog. So why now? And why after all this time? Honestly this could just be a “I’m going to graduate soon and real life scares the crap out of me” kind of crisis. But it’s also because I’ve been wanting to write a blog for a while now. I just kept chickening out. You see, I’m not the best at expressing myself and I’m definitely not the best at feeling vulnerable. For the most part, no one even knows I write.
So why the change? Well it’s a combination of a few different things. The change was actually largely caused by change itself. Recently, I became a graduate of my university hockey team. Losing the sport I love and that I have played for the past 14 years of my life has been an adjustment. This transition finalizes an era in my life. It has made me question who I am without hockey and what other passions I might have. This change is only amplified by the slowly approaching date of my graduation which accentuates these unanswered questions and thoughts in a different light. This whole experience has given me a desire to learn more about myself and find different interests that I didn’t have time to explore before.
So, simply said, one of the heavy weighing reasons why I started a blog now is because I actually have time to put into it. Well at least more than I am used to since I now fall into the category of a NARP (non-athletic regular person). So I figured I might as well fill the void in my life with something I have always wanted to try. So here I am. I may be the worst blogger out there or I might have a knack for it but at least this way I will find out. Lately I have been trying to make time for things I don’t normally do, including things that scare me. I started embracing the opportunities that I usually shy away from because I want to challenge myself. I want to find out more about my passions, likes and dislikes. In the last few weeks, I started to apply myself in situations that were out of my comfort zone. Blogging just so happens to be one of those things.
I have been thinking of different blog ideas and themes for a while now but this one has stuck to me. I knew it was something I wanted to pursue. Maybe because I finally stopped denying that I still have a lot of life to figure out. Maybe it’s because I started realizing that almost everyone, no matter what age, feels the same way. Or maybe it was because I finally figured out that fighting the things we can’t control is helpless and enjoying the moment instead is much more worthwhile. So here’s to blogging, trying new things and sorting out my many thoughts and ideas. Some good, some bad and some potentially just downright strange. Either way it’s all here for your amusement, thoughts and interpretations. So…. here we go!